and i feel so fat and i dont know what to do. i have to cook tommorow and my bf is telling me i need to lose more than 20 lbs to look skinny.. im 5'9 and 146 lbs and i told him i want to lose 20 lbs but apparently that isnt enough. so he yelled at me and told me to "fucking lose it or stop fucking complaining because thats what you do all the time and im sick of hearing it".. and we were watchingthe biggest loser and he mentioned that some of the contestants were my size and some even smaller than I after they lost weight.. and i feel like im delusional because i think i look alot skinnier than these distorted ex-obese people. i dont understand.
i want to fucking cut all the fat out of my body with a fucking kitchen knife.
i dont know what to do. someone help me btw. i am the second asian girl on the runway and i posted another pic from my last photoshoot. please tell me if i am crazy for thinking i only need to lose 20 lbs not more...
