hiatus

currently 148. im on a break, for my own sanity.

in the meantime... my birthday is coming up so im making a wishlist!

1.   http://www.chanel.com/fashion/8#8-large-flap-bag-1,1,3,4

2.  black rimless gucci sunglasses

3.  http://www.chanel.com/fashion/8#8-orylag-evening-clutch-with-pearl-chain-and-chanel-signature-1,1,3,26

1.  http://www3.jcpenney.com/jcp/X6.aspx?GrpTyp=PRD&ItemID=190ed85&DeptID=70731&CatID=71777&SO=0&x5view=1&Ne=5+3+14+1037+1031+23+18+904+949+833&shopperType=G&N=4294953499&Nao=42&PSO=0&CmCatId=70731

2.  more juicy velour pants/tracksuits

3. Chanel studs

4.  MAC eyeshadow pallette

5.  http://www1.bloomingdales.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=469567&CategoryID=19956

6.  http://www2.victoriassecret.com/commerce/onlineProductDisplay.vs?namespace=productDisplay&origin=onlineProductDisplay.jsp&event=display&prnbr=KB-259434&page=4&cgname=OSCLOSPTZZZ&rfnbr=4623

(I like the black love pink one or the pink snake one)

7.  http://www2.victoriassecret.com/commerce/onlineProductDisplay.vs?namespace=productDisplay&origin=onlineProductDisplay.jsp&event=display&prnbr=KB-260395&page=1&cgname=OSCLODRSBLK&rfnbr=3198

8. I want this for when i get skinny.. http://www2.victoriassecret.com/commerce/onlineProductDisplay.vs?namespace=productDisplay&origin=onlineProductDisplay.jsp&event=display&prnbr=KB-259041&page=4&cgname=OSCLOSXYZZZ&rfnbr=3367

9.  http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?

catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=acc%5Fbelts&product%5Fid=2067392061&Page=1

10.  http://www2.victoriassecret.com/commerce/onlineProductDisplay.vs?namespace=productDisplay&origin=onlineProductDisplay.jsp&event=display&prnbr=KB-258907&page=2&cgname=OSCLOTOPHOO&rfnbr=6533

6 lbs in one day.

i freakin suck.

so i got down to 144lbs on saturday then i binged from saturday night and all of sunday.

and i weighed myself this morning and i am up to 149.9 lbs

wtf.

so i am in bed fucking depressed as shit. went to the gym this morning n took a bunch of laxitives that havent started working yet.

>:[

i hate binging.

no eating sundays either from now on.

ive been fasting since monday.

and im still 149..

am i doing something wrong? and the space between my thighs seem to be slowly closing up...

butbut i tried on smaller shirts and dresses that were tight on me and they fit really well!

only my shoulders are still huge but theres nothing really i can do about my bone structure... is there?

3rd day

3rd day of fasting.

i think i should eat really little to keep my metabolism from going into starvation mode.. 

ill eat a few blueberries.